Dad, I´m scared!

I don´t know what to do. I keep trying not to have sex, but I always end up having it. I´m tired of living a lie. Acting like everything is okay. I am struggling with lust. I may be pregnant. My period did not come on. If I am I can´ blame anyone but myself. You play with fire and you get burnt. I know that you are a merciful and gracious God. You want nothing but the best for me. Right now it sure don´t feel like it. I feel like giving up in this fight. I know if I give up the enemy will have free reign over me and Zachai. That is not an option. I tasted your love and I can´t give it up for anything. In the end I choose you. You are always with me. You love me unconditionally. You make me want better for my son. When I am with You, I feel peace, joy, love and patience. There´s no one like you Dad. I couldn´t leave You, You´re too good to me.....Shannon you can´t go off of your emotions/feelings, they aren´t trustworthy. They go up and down like the roller coasters you dodo not like. Stay connected with Me, I will regulate them daughter. I am happy you shared your feelings.Remember I am with you through it all. You are never alone. I love you, daughter.